Grace.

Wow...life is a ride on a rollercoaster. Just a few short months ago, I was begging and pleading with the universe to change my life. Be careful what you ask for, because you get it! Plus more! In the last couple of months, my life has changed dramatically. Just when I thought I had it figured out, it changed. What is "it" you ask? Life...and all that it encompasses.

I've come to realize a lot in the last couple of months and I'm sure I could go on and on about it writing and blogging until the wee hours of the morning. If I could sum it up in one word as to what I am feeling, it would have to be: Gratitude.

Every single experience in our life changes us...and we have the opportunity to heal an aspect of ourself that is holding us back from evolving to the multidimensional, multi-sensory human being that we are all striving for (consciously or not!). Around every corner is crisis. Or is it? It's a time to focus, a time to release, a time to heal. I'm so grateful for these experiences, for it has shaped me to become who I am today. These experiences have not only occurred in this lifetime, but for many lifetimes. Learning, and releasing, the cycle continues. I'm striving to release my ego and my thirst for external power. I only want to look at things with eyes of love, compassion and understanding. I now choose to place the welfare of mankind ahead of mine. Because I know that the way we choose to treat others, is the way we are choosing to treat ourselves. Hating, killing, oppressing, discriminating, and fearing. When will we all choose to wake up from this illusion? I hope I live to see the day that all of this changes. I'm so incredibly humbled and grateful for this realization. I hope I can rub off on others and inspire this behavior.

There but for the grace of God go I.

Losing the fear

According to Wikipedia, Fear is an emotional response to a threat. It is a basic survival mechanism occurring in response to a specific stimulus, such as pain or the threat of danger. Fear is useful to some extent, but most of the time, it reeks havoc on our lives. Millions of humans fear being alone, not being respected, not having enough resources and not being loved. When we fear, we lash out on people who are close to us, and people who are complete strangers. I wish people could step away from the fear and realize that we have another option-to believe that we in actuality, have nothing to fear. Fear is an illusion. It's an emotion generated from the ego. An emotion of some of the lowest energy.

Over the past few weeks, I've been confronted with Fear. Fear of a lot of things, but mostly fear of lack and fear of doubt. It's been a battle, and I believe I am finally prevailing. I think the only way we can heal the fear, is to choose something else. Choose to face the fear...right in the face. To anyone who reads these words, I ask you all to please have the courage and the strength to believe that you have nothing to fear. Everything is in perfect and Divine order. It just is, and there is no other way. Have the strength to look past the fear. Can you see what is there?

an army of words to try and explain myself and the last few days...

I’ve always believed in God. I’ve always believed in Angels. I’ve always believed in energy and the Universe. But the past few days, I have become more aware than I ever have of a loving, Divine presence. This presence is all encompassing-a label won’t even do it justice. It’s God, the Goddess, the Angels, my guides, the Ascended Masters, my ancestors and all those that I am not even aware of yet! It’s the whole Universe…The Divinity. It surrounds me yet resides within me all at the same time in a space right behind my heart. This presence is pure like an elixir of healing, supportive, unconditional light of the purest kind. It has always been and it will always be. It’s male and it’s female. It’s every name ever given. It stands outside of religion…it is pure spirit. I’ve stepped into a pool of light and grace. It’s overwhelming at times…almost dropping me to my knees in gratitude. It makes me want to sing, dance, and shout the glories of the Divine that I have stumbled upon. I overflow. My entire existence expands and I love. At times, this feeling is hard to contain. And that is why I am writing this…to try and describe what it is I feel.

Wellness Plan

Alison’s Wellness Plan Winter 2009/2010

Goal: To start a healthy routine to get me through the winter to come. To be the healthiest that I can be…physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Endevours included will be weight loss, creative outlets and advancing in my spiritual path.

To lead a prosperous life in all aspects.

Start date: Monday, September 28, 2009

Physical Commitments:
1-Exercise 4 times per week for a minimum of 1 hour
2-Stretching with deep breathing everyday
3-Drink 2 green jugs of water per day
4-Minimize dairy products, “white” foods/processed foods and incorporate at least 5-6 servings of fruit and veggies everyday
5-No soda or any beverage with carbonation
6-Substitute tea for coffee as often as possible
7-Lose 15-20 lbs

Mental Commitments:
1-Be in the process of reading a book at all times
2-Write something at least 4 days a week
3-Buy keyboard and write at least 2 original songs by birthday (music and lyrics)

Emotional Commitments:
1-Positive affirmations every morning
2-Passing on the positive to someone else, everyday

Spiritual Commitments:
1-Speak less, listen more.
2-Meditation everyday-Even if it’s for 5 minutes
3-Actively seek/host community and spiritual gatherings



Rewards:
1-Massage every month
2-Spend $50 every month on me or whatever I want

Mutant Message Down Under

I just finished the BEST book. Mutant Message Down Under. It's about a woman's journey through the Outback with a tribe of some of the most beautiful people on this planet. The concepts in the book are so eye opening...yet are very clear and plain as day. I highly recommend you read this book. It's a fairly quick read...and trust me...it will change your life. Here are the main things that really settled into my heart as I read.

1-The concept of releasing attachment to wordly possessions and beliefs. The minute we start to do this, is the minute that we move into actually "being."
2-We are all healers...and we are perfectly capable of healing ourselves and each other. I find it really unsettling to know about some of the harsh realities of the relationships between some doctors and their patients. The words.."I'm sorry, there is no cure...you are going to die" is heard WAY TO OFTEN in our world today. How do they know there isn't a cure to illness, cancer and disease?!? They just haven't bloody found it yet!! Also...the concepts of Reiki, accupuncture, light therapy and good ol fashioned positive thinking being just too "new" to rely upon in a bunch of absolute crap. These are some of the oldest healing modalities and techniques in the Universe! If we all just quit poisoning ourselves, and actually held a positive thought once or twice daily, we would no longer need a "health care" reform. Insurance would no longer be needed...and we would be healthy, happy, whole people.
3-Let's stop taking more than we need. And let's stop wasting precious resources. It's taking a tole on our planet.
4-The art of silence, mediation, and quieting our mind is the STRONGEST form of communication we have with the Gods. How can we listen and receive our answers when we are constantly talking? Next time you say a prayer, try silencing your mind for 5 minutes. You'd be surprised at the impressions you receive. This is actually Divine guidance.
5-Let's lift each other up and celebrate the gifts that each of us bring to the table. We are all tiny pieces of the puzzle...so why do we compete? We are one.
6-And last but not least...the importance of giving thanks. For every single thing. Let us all start and end our day with a prayer of gratitude. Here are the things for which I am completely grateful for today...

The words of encouragement i received from my Aunt Debbie this morning. The food that I was blessed in consuming. The nourishment and strength that I received from my food. The people that prepared my food. The animals that contributed to the dairy products I ate. The plants that contributed to the food that I ate. The roof over my head. The car that I drive. The very clothes on my back. A warm bed to rest in. The freedom of being who I am...without getting burned at the stake! The water that I drink and the ocean that it came from. Stones and crystals. My clients who lift me up and support me so that in return, I may give back and serve them. My health. My awareness. My enlightenment. The rain and the cleansing it brings. My family.

Update

After reviewing my recent postings, I noticed I haven't posted a good general update on life in a while. So here goes!

I've been on a path of spirituality and transformation-a quest for knowledge to feed my deep hunger and thirst for the ever changing truths. It's been a good time and I've met a lot of really inspiring people. I began meeting with a women's group in Salt Lake City every month. The focus of the class is work on our ascension-becoming lighter beings and to help usher in the new Golden Age! The women I meet with are amazing. I know we were meant to meet up in this lifetime-as we have done the same work in other lifetimes! I feel closer to earth, yet very close to the sky. I've realized we all have a very important job to do here-and I fully surrender myself to whatever the Universe has in store for me!

On a mundane-earth to Alison! level, I am doing great. I am still working two part time jobs-one at Cosmo Prof and I am also still at the salon a couple days a week. I like it because I have a different schedule everyday and I still have room for all of my spiritual/creative endeavors. Learning to live a life of balance has been my task at hand this summer...and I'm really enjoying it.

As you all know, Rody and I plan to move to Oregon. We've nailed down a for sure time for late next spring. Hopefully May 2010. I love the Portland area, but I would be glad to end up anywhere in the 2 hour stretch of land between Portland and the coast. Rodrigo is currently looking for a job on a ship, so (keep your fingers crossed!) that he finds something soon! This is what his truly desired career path is...and I support him fully in finding his place out in the Sea. I know that everything will be ok and that our relationship will thrive. We will be completely connected-even with him out in the middle of the Ocean for months at a time!

We are training for another Half Marathon in October down in Moab, too. The training has been hard-but rewarding. This will be our first race together. And I am excited for another weekend getaway down in the desert! The weather should be beautiful.

I better be going now-I have a meeting with my Goddess Ladies in Salt Lake City today...and I am so excited for the work we will be doing today.

Namaste!!

My message to the universe...

I've a new way of living and a new life. I'm interested in new exciting things...and there are also a lot of things that I am no longer interested in. With this, relationships have shifted.

I decided to call a gathering at my house tonight for 9/9/09...I planned to do a group meditation to raise an area of energy vibration to usher in more light into the world...to help mankind evolve. I'm quite excited about it...
After going through my contact list, I realized there were only a small amount of people that I could call on to participate in this with me-at least without having them think I was a complete quack! LOL!

Universe-I ask for your help in this:

Please help me to draw more people into my life that are on a similar path, spiritually speaking. I want a spiritual best friend-someone to practice Reiki with me...someone to meditate with me...someone to do moon rituals and rites with...someone to have conversations about world religions...and most of all, SOMEONE WHO IS POSITIVE and can teach me. A balanced friendship(s)...one of give and take in equal amounts. A synergy of light and love.

NO MORE LIGHT VAMPIRES ALLOWED!

I also ask for your help in releasing any blocks about receiving-so that I may open my arms to the changes I want in my life. So that I may open my arms wide to the abundance of the universe. There is plenty to go around...and I just need to declare what is mine.

I wish for change...quantum leap changes. Someone take my life and shake it upside down so that the energy is revived and refreshed and all the old be gone and all the new appear. I wish to do the things I've never done before.

CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE...GIVE ME CHANGE!!!!!!!

My heart is expanding

Have you every felt like there is so much love in your heart that it just might explode? That's how I woke up feeling this morning. I love everything. Words can't even describe!!

The End.

All things in life go through the cycle of birth, growth, death and rebirth. Sunrises, Sunsets. Spring, Summer, Winter, Fall. Even relationships go through this change. It's sad to let go of friends and loved ones when the time comes.

I feel a lot of relationships in my life right now are in the winter stage of the cycle. Friendships that I thought were once strong have weakened. The illusion of a strong foundation is now revealing itself to be weakened. Weakened by what? Time, nature, fate, destiny...or just plain old fashioned growing apart? I don't know...and it's not my place to question it. It just is.

These are the times we need to sit back and remember the memories and give thanks for the love and the blessing we received during the course of the relationship. If we hold onto it any longer, we run the risk of ruining it forever. We can't be hurt by it. I've been told many times in my life that when one door shuts, God opens multiple doors for us elsewhere. We just have to have the courage and the strength to go through the doors...that is our half of the agreement, my friends. I really believe this.

As I say goodbye to these friendships, I wish them all well and I send them all love from the very depths of my heart. Thank you for touching my life. Thank you for changing my life.

I am overflowing

I'm not gonna lie...I had a week from hell last week. I've felt an incredible amount of stress and I have felt that I have done a lot of releasing. So much, it sent me home from work on Friday and I just felt like running and hiding and being alone. I just felt so much friction within almost every relationship in my life. I went to bed last night hoping that today something would change. When my alarm went off, to my disappointment, I didn't feel any change. I was tired and just wanted to crawl right back in under the blanket. I dreaded going to work and I dreaded facing another day of friction. While in the shower, I had a very open discussion with myself and vocally expressed every fear that I had within me. I feel that for so long, I've kept inside what I felt fear about-afraid that speaking the fear might bring it to life. I asked for help to overcome my fears. Walking into my bedroom to get dressed, I stopped dead in my tracks as a whirlwind of energy circled around me and through every pore into my body. The sense was so overwhelming that I had to sit down...the light and the love filled my heart and overflowed through every sense. So powerful, I cried. This morning was a turning point. As I got ready for my day, looking into the mirror at myself seemed different. I felt as if I was changed-transformed-transmuted into something different-I'm not sure how, but I could even sense a physical change. Looking back on the many "mini-lifetimes" within my lifetime, I could see my evolution. Ever changing. Ever growing. And to think, I've only begun.

I went to work with a smile on my face as a pink light of love surrounded me-encasing me. The morning was great. Things took a sudden turn with an encounter of what I believe was the most angry, hurt, resentful, hateful person I have ever encountered in my entire life. The energy he left behind was so dense, so black, I had to open the door of the store to let some of it out. All who worked along side me today were shaken by this. This man, this encounter, stuck in my mind through the rest of the morning and when I went to lunch, he was still lingering in my mind. Driving to the bank, a word popped into my head out of no where. UNTOUCHED. Along with this word, came a knowing of other words I believe to be loud and clear diving guidance-"Grounded in light, you can face anything and be completely untouched. You can endure." I'm not sure who or where this message came from.

I feel so blessed today and I am so grateful. Life is everywhere. Light is everywhere. I am receiving.

Join Me!

I'm creating heaven on earth for myself and I'm shedding my skin. What is emerging for me is leading a life of love and light. Shadow cannot exist where light shines. Only the truth will sustain and remain. I know that friendships and relationships will end...but I will also be attracting new relationships that thrive on the balance of giving and receiving. It's a beautiful synergy. I attract people and situations that benefit me...for my higher diving purpose. I'm on the path to enlightenment. I'm no longer enabling sickness and unbalance. My words are powerful and they come from a place of light. I love.

a couple of quick things...

Here are a couple of things that have been on my mind today...
1. Giving is receiving. They go hand in hand.
2. Self love is not selfish. It's all about integrity. Take what you deserve. When we are fully replenished, we are at our highest potential to give back to the earth and to mankind. Being a little selfish at times and saying "no" does have the chance to come from love and light at times.
3. The earth is beautiful. I'm so grateful for it. I'm so lucky to be here.
4. Go with the flow. Follow your intuition where it takes you. You have the chance to experience some amazing things in life.
5. Don't hang on to things that you've outgrown. Release them, and move on to something better.
6. I'm saying goodbye to things in my life that no longer suit me...I've become weary of catering to peoples agendas. If you wish to be apart of my light and my heaven on earth, lay down your arms and join me.
7. Don't apologize for speaking your truth. It's who you are.
8. Be thankful for the moon and the energy it gives us. Thank you moon...from the bottom of my heart.
9. Illumination.

Mother Earth

This coming weekend is Summer Solstice. It is a time of manifestation and change. I'm doing a lot to prepare for this...cleansing my body, my mind, even my house and workspace. I've started a "wish list" of things that I'd like to see happen with the intent of "this or something better." Along with this, comes taking stock of all of the wonderful things in my life. One major one that has been on my mind today, is our planet and the crisis that it is in. I became aware of the way that I contribute to it's demise. Even the steps I take affect the earth as an imprint of my energy. My goal is to become more mindful of the way I walk and I intend to walk and run in peace. If I'm upset, I'm not going to stomp around in anger. I wish to give thanks to this beautiful planet and the life that it sustains us with. All this earth has ever done is help us to live it has given and given and given. And all we seem to do is take take take. When do we reach the breaking point? This is my vow and my commitment in writing to do whatever I can to change it all...I hope you do to.

Buy the eco bags at the grocery store...and remember to bring them with you each time you go. Turn off the lights when you aren't in the room. Unplug the appliances you don't use often. Pick up the trash in your community. Plant a garden. Quit consuming products that come from companies that pollute. Go vegetarian! Eat products that are organic! Quit wearing leather. Be mindful of the trash you put in your garbage can...can you reuse or recycle it it anyway? And last but not least...educate yourself about the mark you are leaving on the planet. This is the only one we have!

I did it.

One week ago today, I completed what was the biggest physical and mental challenge yet in my 24 years. I finished a Marathon. For those of you who don't know how long that is, it is 26.2 miles. My friend Ashley told me she was going to do it and somehow, I found myself registering for the same run. Training starting back in December. When I first started, I could barely run a mile. I put my mind to it and I pushed myself harder. Running that first mile became easy and soon after that, 5, 10 and 13 miles became easy too. Don't get me wrong...it wasn't all a walk (or run! LOL) in the park. There were days when it was snowing, freezing and wet...I still pushed through. There were also days when I hurt really bad. My joints ached and my muscles begged me to stop. I still pushed through. A short 5 months blew by and the big race day came to be. I was nervous. So nervous my stomach hurt and my heart pounded out of my chest. The day of the race, I had to be up at 4 to give myself ample time to prepare and to "top off" my fuel tank with carbs and Powerade. We were shuttled up Ogden Canyon on busses. I sat next to a guy named Ryan. This too, was also his first marathon. I could tell he was nervous because he was singing all the way to the starting line. The starting line at 6:00 AM had a temperature of 28 degrees. I was in shorts and a tank top, so it was a bit uncomfortable. A stranger chatted with me...this was her 5th marathon and I listened closely to her strategies. I found Ashley and we chatted as we stood in line for the bathroom to try and keep warm and keep our minds off of the task that lay ahead of us. So many people wanted to win and to be #1...I just wanted to finish and feel good. 7:00 AM starting time came fast and we heard the boom of the starting gun. We were off!! I decided I would try one of the strategies that the stranger at the starting line suggested. I would run 1 mile, and then walk for 60 seconds...take it one mile at a time. If I felt strong at the end, I could push harder if I needed. The first few miles were great as my muscles warmed. I remember a gentleman and his 2 kids sitting in there front yard cheering us on with two huge speakers playing the song "Here comes the sun" as I ran by. It brought tears to my eyes...I felt that message was just for me. I then saw an older woman sitting with her husband on lawn chairs waiving an American Flag. She shouted out to us that she wished she had half the energy that we did!! At about mile 12, I saw my mommy. It was nice to see her and my dad as they cheered me on. When I reached the halfway mark, I stopped and took the Advil I had tucked in my sports bra. My hip was starting to really hurt. Within a few minutes I was feeling strong again. There was one big hill...I walked the whole way up with an older gentleman as we talked about the weather and what a great day it was!! At the top of the hill was another aid station...more Powerade and water. The sugar from the Powerade and the GU packets started to make my stomach turn. I pushed harder as I entered down into Ogden Canyon. The sun was getting hot...beating against the blacktop. At about the 20 mile marker, my Ipod died. I listened to the river rushing pass me...imagining my body being one with the flow of the water down the canyon. I pushed harder and harder as the pain in my hip returned. As I came out of the canyon, I entered the Ogden River Parkway. I had done a lot of my training on this parkway. It was the same path was going to deliver me to my finish. My victory. Another older gentleman stood at the side clapping and cheering me on telling me how great I looked..."You're a Marathoner!!" he cheered as I passed. I used that same phrase so many days as a positive affirmation as I looked in the mirror...I know his message was meant just for me. It was the last little boost I needed. I finally reached Grant Avenue...5 blocks away to the finish. It was the longest 5 blocks I've ever travelled. Time seemed to move slow as my dad walked behind me cheering me on. The crowd was still big as I closed in and all of my friends and family were there to welcome me. It took me 5 and a half hours...but I made it. I received a metal and my picture was taked. I finished the Ogden Marathon. I met up with friends and family and made my way home. My stomach turned to knots and I thought I was going to through up. I slept 15 hours that night. The next day, I could hardly walk. It was worth it...I will definitely do it again and again.

I tag anyone who reads this!!
All you do is answer these questions


1. Where is your cell phone? on the chair
2. Your significant other? outside on the porch. Having a man date with our friend Jeremy.
3. Your hair? copper
4. Your mother? silly
5. Your father? around
6. Your favorite thing? snugs and hugs
7. Your dream last night? i don't really recall!!
8. Your favorite drink?Sugar Free Red Bull OR black coffee with sugar in the raw
9. Your dream/goal? To FINISH the marathon and not hurt so bad
10. The room you're in? living room
11. Your fear? not being true to myself
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Portland, OR or traveling the world. :)
13. Where were you last night? home. I didn't do anything last night!
14. What you're not? a loser.
15. Muffins? mmmmm....yummy.
16. One of your wish list items? to get a six pack by the end of the summer!
17. Where you grew up? Ogden/Layton
18. What are you wearing? jammies
19. Your pet! a fish
20. Your computer? mac
21. Your life?changing
22. Your mood? sleepy
23. Missing someone? old friends sometimes...my puppy dog Indie
24. Your car? eco-friendly
25. Favorite thing to wear? jammies
26. Favorite Store? Target
27. Your summer? productive!
28. Your favorite color? Green
29. When is the last time you laughed? about an hour ago.
30. Where do you go over and over? Cosmo Prof....Salon....Cosmoprof....Salon
31. Where would you like to go right now? To our new house!!!
32. Who will re-post this? Maybe Lindsay?

I never thought I would see the day...

when I thought that running 5 miles was a piece of cake!

And it is!!! So you should run 5 miles too!!!

Heck! You should come run the Ogden Marathon with me!!!

lessons

I'm learning a lot of lessons right now. Things I thought I mastered or knew everything about. But, I'm human and everyday is an awakening and a new lesson. This week, I feel my lesson has been to learn to tolerate and accept people who operate from a lower vibrational energy. This past year, I've strived to better myself...not in a worldy manor, but spiritually. I've really become a lot more mindful when it comes to passing judgement on other people. This, along with Reiki and taking interest in things that nurture myself-mind, body and soul-my vibrational activity has shifted. I feel my light is brighter and I am on a mission to share the truth!! The past few days I've come across some extreme negativity that has shaken my being. Lying in bed the other night, I could actually feel the residue of the negative energy that I have absorbed from my resent experiences. I've become very sensitive to this energy and sometimes I feel like I just can't take it!!! This morning I meditated and it helped. I imagined all of my Angels circling around me. As they circled, I held my right hand out and imagined every worry and every negative experience forming into a giant bubble in my hand. When I felt like I got all of it out of me and into the bubble, I lifted the burden to the sky and released it to my Angels. I've released my worries and problems because I know my Angels have a better solution then for me to sit and worry!! Just as I did, I physically felt a weight shift and my whole body became covered with chills. (Angels bumps!)

Human life on planet earth is so violent. I am glad we have so many beautiful things to be thankful for to keep the balance. I wish and pray for peace and enlightenment for everyone.

Life is.

Today was a great day. I went to an Art of Channeling class today. Basically, it was a class on how to meditate and get in touch with your true Divine self. I learned out to show my ego out of the way and to silence my mind. The feelings and impressions I received, the images I saw, and the sounds that I heard were unbelievable. So unbelievable, that my life has been changed forever.

We are all beings of light connected to the same energy. The Divine love energy so many of us call God. We are this energy. When we silence our minds and relax our physical beings, we subject ourselves to receiving more energy. With this energy, comes messages from our higher selves, guides, Angels and Divine Father. The ideas, beliefs and systems that we have were not created by ourselves...these were given to us by someone else. Believe it or not...your self image is not yours at all!!! It was handed to you at a very young age!!! I finally got to see a small glimpse of my true soul today and I have definitely received a better understanding of the things that are blocking my path. The things I experienced today are beyond words and I feel as if every belief system I have had is crumbling beneath me. I know it's being replaced with a solid foundation...the truth. The truth is something I am seeking for my own self now. I am love. You are love. We all are love. At the end of the day, nothing matters but that. We must remember to look past the mundane in life and realize this on a daily basis. We need to rise above and shove aside our brains and egos to really experience this. Look at life as if you were looking at it through the eyes of an Angel. When we do this, we see only Love. I feel as if I am in a trance of cosmic Love right now. Something so indescribable. There is only the present. I am living in it now and I can feel the energy radiating in and all around me.

Robert Daniel Searle

18 years ago yesterday, my father, Robert Daniel Searle left this world. I was only 6 years old when he died.

Last night, he came and visited me in a dream. It was a very real, powerful dream. I truly believe it was not only a dream-it actually occurred-somewhere in another realm.

I was standing on some steps to a giant church with a great crowd swarming all around me. I was waiting for someone, but I didn't know who. Just then, I saw my dad walking up the steps through the crowd to meet me. When he reached me, I gave him a big hug. He looked exactly like he does in the few pictures I have of him. It was kind of funny, because his look was outdated. But it's how I remember him, so I'm sure that is what he thought would be most comforting to me. The hug was the thing that stuck out to me. It was a kind of hug that I think all little girls should get from their Daddy. It was fulfilling and I remember it warming my heart. (I still felt it when I woke up!!) This was a hug that I have never experience in my life. We then had a long conversation, where he proceeded to give me a lot of information about my life. This is the part of the dream that I don't consciously remember. I wish I did!

Rest in peace Dad! I love you!!

Thank God for change

Change has finally come. The Universe has blessed me with a new job. I've been able to say good bye to Wolf Creek Resort...for good. The salon has picked up wonderfully and I got a job at Cosmo Prof in Ogden. Cosmo Prof is a professional beauty supply. It's great because it's 3 miles from my house...no more long drives up Ogden Canyon on snowy days. It's also stress free and really laid back. I get to talk to people about my favorite hair products and I don't even have to cover my tattoos. I'm so grateful for this change.

I was terribly sick last week...flu, ear infection and sinus infection. I feel like my body was purging all the old. In a way, it was symbolic for me...a healthier, more resilient, stronger Alison has emerged! Tomorrow will be my first day running in 2 weeks. Let's pray my strength keeps me going without relapsing into sickness!

Now that I'm not working at the WC, I have more time for the things I love. Reiki is top on the list! I'm excited to be learning more, and growing. I feel like a completely different person since I've started my spiritual journey with Reiki. I feel at peace with things in life. Overall, I just feel happier and more secure. People close to me have even commented on the change.

I LOVE REIKI!!!!!!

1 week down. 15 more to go.

15 more weeks until the Ogden Marathon on May 16. I started a 16 week training program this week and I ran a total of 14 miles this week with my long run day being 5 miles.

The thing I love running because I get to eat more!!! Lots of Carbs!!!

How is it that I'm eating 200-300 more calories per day and I still lost 4 pounds the last week?

WEIRD!!!

I LOVE RUNNING!!! I FEEL SO GOOD RIGHT NOW!!!

Change

"Be the change you wish to see in the world." -Gandhi
I love this quote. i came across it painted on a building as I was out running last week on the Ogden River Parkway. For some reason when I woke up today, it was ringing in my head.

I'm thankful for my new president, Barack Obama. It's great to see that this country will be lead by someone so smart and so well spoken. I love how he strives to change today's government so the nation can restore it's faith in their leaders. I'm so excited to see change in this country and in the world! I know it won't happen over night...but it's on it's way!!! Barack Obama is someone I truly admire for his courage in stepping into quite a mess we've created here in the USA. What if we were all this courageous in everything we did? Imagine the possibilities. All fear would disappear.

Instruction Manual for Life

I love this. Compliments of the Dalai Lama...

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

3. Follow the three Rs:
Respect for self
Respect for others and
Responsibility for all your actions.

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

7. When you realise you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

8. Spend some time alone every day.

9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.

12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.

14. Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality.

15. Be gentle with the earth.

16. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.

17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

Am I that crazy lady talking about the end? Or is it the beginning?

A friend and I got into a discussion last Sunday about the year 2012. It was quite an interesting discussion and it got the wheels turning in my head. Since then, I've done a bit of research online reading into some of the theories of events that might take place. With my religious background, it also made for some interesting research.

What do you think would happen if we lost our egos? How would we operate? It would be completely from our higher selves. Do you think our brains could physically process that? Imagine how the world would be.

Is all of man kind prepared for this spiritual evolution? This awakening? Operating on a higher plane of consciousness would entail remarkable things happening to mankind across the globe. We would all be connected with spirit, our higher selves and each other-all through our minds. We would know what others are thinking, and we would finally have the ability to lose our egos. We could communicate with our minds and manifest all that we would ever need.

To some-the collapse of our old systems and ideas would be the Revelation and the end of the world. To me-I see it as a new beginning. The beginning of the Golden Era. A complete shift in consciousness. To complete the shift, we will have to go through a collapse of our old ideas and ways of living. I think the collapse would be survival of the fittest and it would be a struggle-especially for those who operate solely from their ego.

Are you ready for the shift in consciousness? I don't think it is something that should be feared. I think it's something that we should look forward to! The whole world is going to change and I am truly grateful that I signed up for this mission on earth to experience it.

Think About This

How old could we live if we had no concept of time and had no idea how old we were?

Orange

If I could describe myself in a color this week, I think it would have to be the color Orange. I have a lot of really positive energy and I feel at peace with my life. I'm happy, I feel I constantly have a smile on my face. I love where my life is heading. I feel an awakening has occurred inside me and I'm ready to be done with negative energy. One thing that I've noticed this doing is creating a major contrast in my life. I am noticing a lot of people around me are depressed, unhappy, frustrated and sad. Now, I know I'm only 23, and I haven't experienced a whole lot in life, but if there is one word of advice that I can offer, it would have to be-QUIT LABELING YOURSELF AS SUCH. The more you tell yourself that you "Suffer from depression," the more you will suffer from depression. I challenge you to really look at your life and think about all of the things we say we are or aren't. If everyone put the energy to saying positive things about ourselves with positive affirmations, WE HAVE THE POWER TO CONQUER ANYTHING!!!! Imagine taking the labels we create for ourselves, the fears, the bad memories and pulling them as if they were a weed, you can use your imagination and watch them shrivel up into nothing. Release yourselves from this self made prison and live the life that our Divine Father intended us to live-Happy, Joyous, and Fulfilling. We were not put on this earth to suffer-we were put on this earth to lead lives of enrichment. Live your life in balance-if you work too much, take a day off for you and really notice and give thanks for the things that bring you joy. Breathe. If you relax too much, get your butt up off the couch and get some fresh air!!! It's amazing what Oxygen does to our bodies...it's amazing the clarity we can receive when we get fresh air. If you feel your life is too noisy with the hustle and bustle of being a parent/sibling/grandparent/boss/employee/friend, escape to somewhere quiet and clear your mind. Retreat. Experience the peace within. Experience Divine Love. Change your life!!!

I am reading a great book right now....it's called "Peace Is Every Step" by Thich Nhat Hanh. I highly recommend it. Here is a small excerpt from it...

Peace is every step.
The shining red sun is my heart.
Each flower smiles with me.
How green, how fresh all that grows.
How cool the wind blows.
Peace is every step.
It turns the endless path to joy.

Advanced Reiki Training

It's time for step 3...Advanced Reiki Training. I wish to devote my life to the practice of Reiki. I want everyone I know to be blessed the way I have been blessed by Reiki.