My message to the universe...

I've a new way of living and a new life. I'm interested in new exciting things...and there are also a lot of things that I am no longer interested in. With this, relationships have shifted.

I decided to call a gathering at my house tonight for 9/9/09...I planned to do a group meditation to raise an area of energy vibration to usher in more light into the world...to help mankind evolve. I'm quite excited about it...
After going through my contact list, I realized there were only a small amount of people that I could call on to participate in this with me-at least without having them think I was a complete quack! LOL!

Universe-I ask for your help in this:

Please help me to draw more people into my life that are on a similar path, spiritually speaking. I want a spiritual best friend-someone to practice Reiki with me...someone to meditate with me...someone to do moon rituals and rites with...someone to have conversations about world religions...and most of all, SOMEONE WHO IS POSITIVE and can teach me. A balanced friendship(s)...one of give and take in equal amounts. A synergy of light and love.

NO MORE LIGHT VAMPIRES ALLOWED!

I also ask for your help in releasing any blocks about receiving-so that I may open my arms to the changes I want in my life. So that I may open my arms wide to the abundance of the universe. There is plenty to go around...and I just need to declare what is mine.

I wish for change...quantum leap changes. Someone take my life and shake it upside down so that the energy is revived and refreshed and all the old be gone and all the new appear. I wish to do the things I've never done before.

CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE...GIVE ME CHANGE!!!!!!!

My heart is expanding

Have you every felt like there is so much love in your heart that it just might explode? That's how I woke up feeling this morning. I love everything. Words can't even describe!!

The End.

All things in life go through the cycle of birth, growth, death and rebirth. Sunrises, Sunsets. Spring, Summer, Winter, Fall. Even relationships go through this change. It's sad to let go of friends and loved ones when the time comes.

I feel a lot of relationships in my life right now are in the winter stage of the cycle. Friendships that I thought were once strong have weakened. The illusion of a strong foundation is now revealing itself to be weakened. Weakened by what? Time, nature, fate, destiny...or just plain old fashioned growing apart? I don't know...and it's not my place to question it. It just is.

These are the times we need to sit back and remember the memories and give thanks for the love and the blessing we received during the course of the relationship. If we hold onto it any longer, we run the risk of ruining it forever. We can't be hurt by it. I've been told many times in my life that when one door shuts, God opens multiple doors for us elsewhere. We just have to have the courage and the strength to go through the doors...that is our half of the agreement, my friends. I really believe this.

As I say goodbye to these friendships, I wish them all well and I send them all love from the very depths of my heart. Thank you for touching my life. Thank you for changing my life.

I am overflowing

I'm not gonna lie...I had a week from hell last week. I've felt an incredible amount of stress and I have felt that I have done a lot of releasing. So much, it sent me home from work on Friday and I just felt like running and hiding and being alone. I just felt so much friction within almost every relationship in my life. I went to bed last night hoping that today something would change. When my alarm went off, to my disappointment, I didn't feel any change. I was tired and just wanted to crawl right back in under the blanket. I dreaded going to work and I dreaded facing another day of friction. While in the shower, I had a very open discussion with myself and vocally expressed every fear that I had within me. I feel that for so long, I've kept inside what I felt fear about-afraid that speaking the fear might bring it to life. I asked for help to overcome my fears. Walking into my bedroom to get dressed, I stopped dead in my tracks as a whirlwind of energy circled around me and through every pore into my body. The sense was so overwhelming that I had to sit down...the light and the love filled my heart and overflowed through every sense. So powerful, I cried. This morning was a turning point. As I got ready for my day, looking into the mirror at myself seemed different. I felt as if I was changed-transformed-transmuted into something different-I'm not sure how, but I could even sense a physical change. Looking back on the many "mini-lifetimes" within my lifetime, I could see my evolution. Ever changing. Ever growing. And to think, I've only begun.

I went to work with a smile on my face as a pink light of love surrounded me-encasing me. The morning was great. Things took a sudden turn with an encounter of what I believe was the most angry, hurt, resentful, hateful person I have ever encountered in my entire life. The energy he left behind was so dense, so black, I had to open the door of the store to let some of it out. All who worked along side me today were shaken by this. This man, this encounter, stuck in my mind through the rest of the morning and when I went to lunch, he was still lingering in my mind. Driving to the bank, a word popped into my head out of no where. UNTOUCHED. Along with this word, came a knowing of other words I believe to be loud and clear diving guidance-"Grounded in light, you can face anything and be completely untouched. You can endure." I'm not sure who or where this message came from.

I feel so blessed today and I am so grateful. Life is everywhere. Light is everywhere. I am receiving.

Join Me!

I'm creating heaven on earth for myself and I'm shedding my skin. What is emerging for me is leading a life of love and light. Shadow cannot exist where light shines. Only the truth will sustain and remain. I know that friendships and relationships will end...but I will also be attracting new relationships that thrive on the balance of giving and receiving. It's a beautiful synergy. I attract people and situations that benefit me...for my higher diving purpose. I'm on the path to enlightenment. I'm no longer enabling sickness and unbalance. My words are powerful and they come from a place of light. I love.

a couple of quick things...

Here are a couple of things that have been on my mind today...
1. Giving is receiving. They go hand in hand.
2. Self love is not selfish. It's all about integrity. Take what you deserve. When we are fully replenished, we are at our highest potential to give back to the earth and to mankind. Being a little selfish at times and saying "no" does have the chance to come from love and light at times.
3. The earth is beautiful. I'm so grateful for it. I'm so lucky to be here.
4. Go with the flow. Follow your intuition where it takes you. You have the chance to experience some amazing things in life.
5. Don't hang on to things that you've outgrown. Release them, and move on to something better.
6. I'm saying goodbye to things in my life that no longer suit me...I've become weary of catering to peoples agendas. If you wish to be apart of my light and my heaven on earth, lay down your arms and join me.
7. Don't apologize for speaking your truth. It's who you are.
8. Be thankful for the moon and the energy it gives us. Thank you moon...from the bottom of my heart.
9. Illumination.

Mother Earth

This coming weekend is Summer Solstice. It is a time of manifestation and change. I'm doing a lot to prepare for this...cleansing my body, my mind, even my house and workspace. I've started a "wish list" of things that I'd like to see happen with the intent of "this or something better." Along with this, comes taking stock of all of the wonderful things in my life. One major one that has been on my mind today, is our planet and the crisis that it is in. I became aware of the way that I contribute to it's demise. Even the steps I take affect the earth as an imprint of my energy. My goal is to become more mindful of the way I walk and I intend to walk and run in peace. If I'm upset, I'm not going to stomp around in anger. I wish to give thanks to this beautiful planet and the life that it sustains us with. All this earth has ever done is help us to live it has given and given and given. And all we seem to do is take take take. When do we reach the breaking point? This is my vow and my commitment in writing to do whatever I can to change it all...I hope you do to.

Buy the eco bags at the grocery store...and remember to bring them with you each time you go. Turn off the lights when you aren't in the room. Unplug the appliances you don't use often. Pick up the trash in your community. Plant a garden. Quit consuming products that come from companies that pollute. Go vegetarian! Eat products that are organic! Quit wearing leather. Be mindful of the trash you put in your garbage can...can you reuse or recycle it it anyway? And last but not least...educate yourself about the mark you are leaving on the planet. This is the only one we have!