Join Me!

I'm creating heaven on earth for myself and I'm shedding my skin. What is emerging for me is leading a life of love and light. Shadow cannot exist where light shines. Only the truth will sustain and remain. I know that friendships and relationships will end...but I will also be attracting new relationships that thrive on the balance of giving and receiving. It's a beautiful synergy. I attract people and situations that benefit me...for my higher diving purpose. I'm on the path to enlightenment. I'm no longer enabling sickness and unbalance. My words are powerful and they come from a place of light. I love.

a couple of quick things...

Here are a couple of things that have been on my mind today...
1. Giving is receiving. They go hand in hand.
2. Self love is not selfish. It's all about integrity. Take what you deserve. When we are fully replenished, we are at our highest potential to give back to the earth and to mankind. Being a little selfish at times and saying "no" does have the chance to come from love and light at times.
3. The earth is beautiful. I'm so grateful for it. I'm so lucky to be here.
4. Go with the flow. Follow your intuition where it takes you. You have the chance to experience some amazing things in life.
5. Don't hang on to things that you've outgrown. Release them, and move on to something better.
6. I'm saying goodbye to things in my life that no longer suit me...I've become weary of catering to peoples agendas. If you wish to be apart of my light and my heaven on earth, lay down your arms and join me.
7. Don't apologize for speaking your truth. It's who you are.
8. Be thankful for the moon and the energy it gives us. Thank you moon...from the bottom of my heart.
9. Illumination.

Mother Earth

This coming weekend is Summer Solstice. It is a time of manifestation and change. I'm doing a lot to prepare for this...cleansing my body, my mind, even my house and workspace. I've started a "wish list" of things that I'd like to see happen with the intent of "this or something better." Along with this, comes taking stock of all of the wonderful things in my life. One major one that has been on my mind today, is our planet and the crisis that it is in. I became aware of the way that I contribute to it's demise. Even the steps I take affect the earth as an imprint of my energy. My goal is to become more mindful of the way I walk and I intend to walk and run in peace. If I'm upset, I'm not going to stomp around in anger. I wish to give thanks to this beautiful planet and the life that it sustains us with. All this earth has ever done is help us to live it has given and given and given. And all we seem to do is take take take. When do we reach the breaking point? This is my vow and my commitment in writing to do whatever I can to change it all...I hope you do to.

Buy the eco bags at the grocery store...and remember to bring them with you each time you go. Turn off the lights when you aren't in the room. Unplug the appliances you don't use often. Pick up the trash in your community. Plant a garden. Quit consuming products that come from companies that pollute. Go vegetarian! Eat products that are organic! Quit wearing leather. Be mindful of the trash you put in your garbage can...can you reuse or recycle it it anyway? And last but not least...educate yourself about the mark you are leaving on the planet. This is the only one we have!

I did it.

One week ago today, I completed what was the biggest physical and mental challenge yet in my 24 years. I finished a Marathon. For those of you who don't know how long that is, it is 26.2 miles. My friend Ashley told me she was going to do it and somehow, I found myself registering for the same run. Training starting back in December. When I first started, I could barely run a mile. I put my mind to it and I pushed myself harder. Running that first mile became easy and soon after that, 5, 10 and 13 miles became easy too. Don't get me wrong...it wasn't all a walk (or run! LOL) in the park. There were days when it was snowing, freezing and wet...I still pushed through. There were also days when I hurt really bad. My joints ached and my muscles begged me to stop. I still pushed through. A short 5 months blew by and the big race day came to be. I was nervous. So nervous my stomach hurt and my heart pounded out of my chest. The day of the race, I had to be up at 4 to give myself ample time to prepare and to "top off" my fuel tank with carbs and Powerade. We were shuttled up Ogden Canyon on busses. I sat next to a guy named Ryan. This too, was also his first marathon. I could tell he was nervous because he was singing all the way to the starting line. The starting line at 6:00 AM had a temperature of 28 degrees. I was in shorts and a tank top, so it was a bit uncomfortable. A stranger chatted with me...this was her 5th marathon and I listened closely to her strategies. I found Ashley and we chatted as we stood in line for the bathroom to try and keep warm and keep our minds off of the task that lay ahead of us. So many people wanted to win and to be #1...I just wanted to finish and feel good. 7:00 AM starting time came fast and we heard the boom of the starting gun. We were off!! I decided I would try one of the strategies that the stranger at the starting line suggested. I would run 1 mile, and then walk for 60 seconds...take it one mile at a time. If I felt strong at the end, I could push harder if I needed. The first few miles were great as my muscles warmed. I remember a gentleman and his 2 kids sitting in there front yard cheering us on with two huge speakers playing the song "Here comes the sun" as I ran by. It brought tears to my eyes...I felt that message was just for me. I then saw an older woman sitting with her husband on lawn chairs waiving an American Flag. She shouted out to us that she wished she had half the energy that we did!! At about mile 12, I saw my mommy. It was nice to see her and my dad as they cheered me on. When I reached the halfway mark, I stopped and took the Advil I had tucked in my sports bra. My hip was starting to really hurt. Within a few minutes I was feeling strong again. There was one big hill...I walked the whole way up with an older gentleman as we talked about the weather and what a great day it was!! At the top of the hill was another aid station...more Powerade and water. The sugar from the Powerade and the GU packets started to make my stomach turn. I pushed harder as I entered down into Ogden Canyon. The sun was getting hot...beating against the blacktop. At about the 20 mile marker, my Ipod died. I listened to the river rushing pass me...imagining my body being one with the flow of the water down the canyon. I pushed harder and harder as the pain in my hip returned. As I came out of the canyon, I entered the Ogden River Parkway. I had done a lot of my training on this parkway. It was the same path was going to deliver me to my finish. My victory. Another older gentleman stood at the side clapping and cheering me on telling me how great I looked..."You're a Marathoner!!" he cheered as I passed. I used that same phrase so many days as a positive affirmation as I looked in the mirror...I know his message was meant just for me. It was the last little boost I needed. I finally reached Grant Avenue...5 blocks away to the finish. It was the longest 5 blocks I've ever travelled. Time seemed to move slow as my dad walked behind me cheering me on. The crowd was still big as I closed in and all of my friends and family were there to welcome me. It took me 5 and a half hours...but I made it. I received a metal and my picture was taked. I finished the Ogden Marathon. I met up with friends and family and made my way home. My stomach turned to knots and I thought I was going to through up. I slept 15 hours that night. The next day, I could hardly walk. It was worth it...I will definitely do it again and again.

I tag anyone who reads this!!
All you do is answer these questions


1. Where is your cell phone? on the chair
2. Your significant other? outside on the porch. Having a man date with our friend Jeremy.
3. Your hair? copper
4. Your mother? silly
5. Your father? around
6. Your favorite thing? snugs and hugs
7. Your dream last night? i don't really recall!!
8. Your favorite drink?Sugar Free Red Bull OR black coffee with sugar in the raw
9. Your dream/goal? To FINISH the marathon and not hurt so bad
10. The room you're in? living room
11. Your fear? not being true to myself
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Portland, OR or traveling the world. :)
13. Where were you last night? home. I didn't do anything last night!
14. What you're not? a loser.
15. Muffins? mmmmm....yummy.
16. One of your wish list items? to get a six pack by the end of the summer!
17. Where you grew up? Ogden/Layton
18. What are you wearing? jammies
19. Your pet! a fish
20. Your computer? mac
21. Your life?changing
22. Your mood? sleepy
23. Missing someone? old friends sometimes...my puppy dog Indie
24. Your car? eco-friendly
25. Favorite thing to wear? jammies
26. Favorite Store? Target
27. Your summer? productive!
28. Your favorite color? Green
29. When is the last time you laughed? about an hour ago.
30. Where do you go over and over? Cosmo Prof....Salon....Cosmoprof....Salon
31. Where would you like to go right now? To our new house!!!
32. Who will re-post this? Maybe Lindsay?

I never thought I would see the day...

when I thought that running 5 miles was a piece of cake!

And it is!!! So you should run 5 miles too!!!

Heck! You should come run the Ogden Marathon with me!!!

lessons

I'm learning a lot of lessons right now. Things I thought I mastered or knew everything about. But, I'm human and everyday is an awakening and a new lesson. This week, I feel my lesson has been to learn to tolerate and accept people who operate from a lower vibrational energy. This past year, I've strived to better myself...not in a worldy manor, but spiritually. I've really become a lot more mindful when it comes to passing judgement on other people. This, along with Reiki and taking interest in things that nurture myself-mind, body and soul-my vibrational activity has shifted. I feel my light is brighter and I am on a mission to share the truth!! The past few days I've come across some extreme negativity that has shaken my being. Lying in bed the other night, I could actually feel the residue of the negative energy that I have absorbed from my resent experiences. I've become very sensitive to this energy and sometimes I feel like I just can't take it!!! This morning I meditated and it helped. I imagined all of my Angels circling around me. As they circled, I held my right hand out and imagined every worry and every negative experience forming into a giant bubble in my hand. When I felt like I got all of it out of me and into the bubble, I lifted the burden to the sky and released it to my Angels. I've released my worries and problems because I know my Angels have a better solution then for me to sit and worry!! Just as I did, I physically felt a weight shift and my whole body became covered with chills. (Angels bumps!)

Human life on planet earth is so violent. I am glad we have so many beautiful things to be thankful for to keep the balance. I wish and pray for peace and enlightenment for everyone.