Weirdest Dream Ever

I just woke up from the strangest dream ever...

It started out in our old house out in West Haven. I had a couple of friends over and we were watching scary movies in the basement-I believe the movie was "The Exorcism of Emily Rose." I remember being really scared when the movie was over. My mom then came downstairs yelling at me saying that because we were watching such an evil movie, I have invoked Satan into human form and she had to cut off his head and bury him. And because it was such a messy process, I needed to go clean up the Satan goo that was left everywhere in the yard. She then handed me and my friends some buckets with bleach to clean. I was really confused at what she was telling me so I asked her to explain 1 more time. She then told me that basically, Satan had come to the house in the form of a Vampire and that she had to dismember him so he couldn't hurt anyone.

The dream then flashed to me and Edward (in Robert Pattinson form) sitting at a bar in a little diner talking about the Vampire situation at my house. I told him what my mom did to the vampire and he told me that it wouldn't be good enough because other vampires could come along and use the same pieces of the vampire to do evil. I then asked if he would come to my house and explain to my parents that he was a vampire and that he new what he was talking about when he said that we should dig up the dead vampire and dismember it for good. He then told me "no" and disappeared.

I ran home to tell my parents what we should do with the body and they agreed. We then went to the backyard to dig up the body. As my parents were digging and broke through the dirt to the body, I noticed it didn't look like a body at all...but just a toy plastic Vampire suit. They took it out of the ground and unfolded it to lay out flat. I then asked my parents if they had a stake that we could drive through the heart and they said they didn't. Just then, the vampire suit started inflating as if it were coming to life. Since it was made of plastic, I told them they needed to punch a hole in the head before it became all the way inflated and back to life.

And that was the end of the dream. Weird huh?

Meet Gilgie

Meet Gilgie. He is a new buddy of ours. He's the best.

Scared of failing

All through my whole life, and even as a child, I've always felt like I've been a bit thicker or bigger than everyone else. I really didn't start learning about nutrition until about a year and a half ago, when I went Vegetarian. Growing up, my family ate a lot of fast food and processed meals. I also started using food as a crutch. When I was sad, I ate. When I was mad, I ate. When I was happy, I ate. Food has always been a reward to me. If I have a stressful day, I convinced myself that I deserved to have something "special" for dinner. If I had a wonderful day, I convinced myself of the same thing. Into my late teens/early adult hood, I realized the effects that all of this has had-weight gain. From the time I graduated high school and until now, I've put on about 30 pounds. I've started a couple of diet programs since then and I've joined the gym. The crummy thing is, you can do an hour of cardio and burn 600 calories but it won't help if you just go right home and eat a 1000 calorie meal. I guess I've just taken a half-assed approach when it has come to weight loss. I'm tired of this vicious cycle and I refuse to continue doing what I've been doing. I'm tired of living to eat when I should be eating to live. This is definitely an emotional battle for me...it's important enough to blog about! Food...and then the guilt of eating too much food has always been something that tortures me every single day. It's become obsessive.

I've tried Sparkpeople.com before-this is actually my second time doing it. I am bound and determined to stick with it and to finally teach myself that food is not what life is all about. I've put in all of my information and it's calculated a healthy weight goal for me. It's even given me a realistic time frame to lose the weight. I limit myself to 1240-1590 calories per day. I drink 8 glasses of water per day and according to Sparkpeople, I only have to work out 3 times a week. This last week has been a success. I've cooked all of my own meals-measuring out proportions, calories, fat, carbs and protein. I went to the gym 3 times and even did some strength training at home on my "off" days. I went to the grocery store yesterday and stocked my kitchen with healthy foods and I've vowed not to eat out. I've been packing my own lunches for work.

I hope I can stick to this routine and I challenge all of you who read my blog to call me out if I end up eating anything I shouldn't be!

Tis' the season plus more...

I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!! And I'll admit...I'd never thought I would say this...but where the heck is all the snow?!?!? I'm so sick and tired of looking outside and seeing only BROWN BROWN BROWN. Rody and I set up our tree on Thanksgiving night as we listened to Christmas music.

Just another little update...Rody and I are looking into going to work in Tuscany, Italy. A friend of Rody's gave us a heads up about the job. I'm not sure if it's going to pay us what we'd like-but we'll keep our ears open and see if it's meant to be. Here is the website to the hostel we'd be working at. It sure looks like heaven to me!!!! www.leonardosland.it

Go figure...I'm the only person I think to start a diet right before the Holidays. I even lost a half a pound over Thanksgiving. I've been going to the gym consistently and I'm counting calories on sparkpeople.com. Yesterday was so freakin hard. It was everything I could do to restrain myself from coming home from the gym and scarfing down whatever I could find. It was definitely a test of my will power. Today was much easier. Surprisingly easy for eating only 1200 calories today. If I keep it up at the pace that I'm keeping, I'll be down my goal of about 30 pounds by July. Wish me luck!! One of my goals on Sparkpeople is to talk to someone positive daily and voice my goals. Since Rody is asleep-you get to find out my goals today. :)

Angel Affirmations

This is Archangel Michael. He was the first Angel created by God. Michael is the leader of all the Archangels and is in charge of protection, courage, strength, truth and integrity. He is one of my favorite Angels, and I ask him every day to help me release any negative energy I may hold on to through out the day.

Over the last year and a half, I've set out on a spiritual path to bring myself closer with the universe and with God. I've done/started a lot of things, like go Vegetarian, started practicing Reiki daily on myself and my goals, meditating and developing my ability to communicate with my angels and my higher self. I believe that Angels are messengers of God. Everyday on my way to work, I speak to God through communication with my Angels. I've found it to be quite effective...and I'm starting to see results in my life. I'm also starting to see messages and signs from my Angels. It's amazing what they do...and everyday, there is something that always happens to reaffirm to me that they are listening...and so is God. So in keeping close communication with my angels...especially over leaving my job, moving to Portland, etc., I stumbled across a really cool website where you can select three cards, and they give you messages from your angels. All you have to do is quiet your mind, and choose the cards. Whatever their message for you is, will pull up on the cards. Here is the link...you guys should check it out!! http://www.consciousone.com/c1cards/cardsView.cfm?cardGroupID=1

I love it because it is always positive and it gives me that positive boost I always need in the morning when I'm turning on my computer at work and waiting for all 50-60 emails to download each morning (seems to always be the most stressful part of my day). Over the last couple of days, my angels keep telling me that change is coming for me...and that I need to pay attention to my dreams. A lot of times, the cards are very specific to things going on in my mind...it's pretty cool.

Angels are everywhere and they are willing to step in and help anytime you ask. They truly are a blessing from God.

Boyfriend Tag!

What is your husband's name: My BOYFRIEND's name is Rodrigo Manuel Ahumada

How long have you been married? not married yet, but we've been together about a year and a half

How long did you date? still dating :)

How old is he? 30

Who eats more sweets? Rody for sure. He loves chocolate. I'm more of a crunchy, salty person.

Who said I love you first? Me.

Who is taller? Rody. By about 5 inches.

Who can sing best? Probably me.

Who is smarter? I think we are both pretty equal in this department. He's a deeper thinker...I'm more on the practical side.

Who does laundry? He does. He had to teach me how to iron my work shirts properly.

Who pays bills? We equally share the responsibility of the bills, but I actually pay them.

Who sleeps on the right side? Mr. R does

Who mows the lawn? Our landlord is supposed to mow the lawn.

Who cooks dinner? Both of us. We love to cook!!! Myself being vegetarian, it's fun to come up with new things.

Who drives? Rody. He thinks I'm a scary driver.

Who is first to admit they are wrong? I do. :)

Who kissed who first? Hmmm...I think it was both of us. Our brains have always had a weird connection...

Who asked who out first? I don't really think people get "asked out" in this day and age...it's more like..."Hey...you wanna hangout?" I think he was the one to ask me to "hang out."

Who wears the pants? Both of us.

Stay Positive

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." -Eleanor Roosevelt

So just an update...I'm sure a lot of you know that I've put my notice in for my position at Wolf Creek. As of December 1st, I will no longer be the Guest Service Manager. My plan was to quit there, find a part time job somewhere in Ogden and then just pick more days up at the salon. Well, the person who I am training for my position has offered me a part time job-still at Wolf Creek-but just as a reservation agent. I'm going to be working about 3 days there. It worked out for both of us-I'll still be her training wheels, and I have a position that still pays a lot more than any other little part time job I could have worked at. The REALLY good part about it, is they are still considering letting me keep my benefits. Win-Win for EVERYONE! YAY!

Part of picking up more days at the salon is having to rebuild my clientele. This part is definitely what I love to do! It involves A LOT of networking and hard work. I'm pretty much taking a blind leap of faith-knowing deep inside that this is the right thing to do. I'm sure a lot of people think I am crazy for walking away from a position like the one I have at Wolf Creek. But the truth is, just because you make good money and have great benefits doesn't mean that life is perfect. I wasn't staying true to myself and I proven to myself just what Greed can create in ones life...complete misery. My life was getting pretty depressing. I feel a sense of relief from it even knowing that I'm taking about a 60% pay cut. I have faith that the universe will provide me the clientele I need to survive in today's day and age.

Whatever your intention is, will manifest itself into your life. My intention is prosperity...in all aspects of my life.