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Can't sleep, yet I'm exhausted. A lot on my mind lately...and the only way I can sleep is to get it all out. I try to express the changes in my life to others...but everyone just looks at me kind of funny. The surrealism in my life is baffling me...can't help but stumble upon deja vu moments in my day and have the peace of mind knowing that where ever I am headed...is the right place for me. And for once, I don't have a single plan of what to do? I'm feeling like a square peg in a round hole right now. Feeling like I've outgrown my niche in life, it's time to try something different. Here goes another mini-movie within my movie of life. Completion of another canister of film to be put on the shelf to collect dust. Will I look back and remember? Can't turn back now. I've been flying by the seat of my pants as of lately and going full force in shifting energy around. Saying goodbye to certain obligations and habits, but then saying hello and embracing new opportunities. I know that spontaneity is going to be key in my life over the next 3 years and I intend to say yes to a lot. I know I need to keep my schedule open. I've been focusing a lot of stepping into my power and center of creativity. Doing something I've never done in my life...but has always been something I've dreamed of...writing music, performing and recording. Stay tuned viewers...you'll have a little glimpse into the psyche of Alison Compton. A whole secret life spilled out in lyrics and melodies. Why not? Thanks to my band boys for taking a risk and helping me out and also putting up with my complete and utter nonsense!! Oh the best of it has yet to come!!

Life is being very good to me and I've come a long way. I'm not going to feel guilty for feeling well. I'm going to indulge. Because I deserve it. And you know what? I think if you feel well...indulge in that satisfaction yourself.

The universe is streaming through my head

A flow of knowledge and knowing has taken over my thoughts...here are a couple random items I feel I need to share. It may seem as if I reiterate a few of these frequently, but I just keep coming back to these...over and over...in different ways each time. I'm blessed to be aware of this.

1-Death is a natural part of life. And not just a physical death. This may seem painful, but the pain you are feeling is caused by holding onto the old aspects of whatever is dying. Out of every death comes some sort or form of new life, when we hold on to pain (death), we hold off on life. Today I take a step toward the birthing of a new future for me and all in my life who I love. No more holding on to pain!!

2-(This one may or may not seem like it contradicts #1 on my list, hopefully you understand the differences!) Karma is real. It's all about being in balance, and whatever you give, you get ten fold. The depths of what you are willing to receive are measured by the depths of what you are willing to give. When you create pain in another beings life, whether you realize it or not, at some point or another, there is a redemption. Sometimes you have to go through pain to heal your life. If you avoid the pain, you pay for it some other way...and it could mean the same problems follow you to your next life, wherever that may be! (Or whatever you might be!)

I think that's it for now.

Thank you thank you thank you for all those who love and guide me. Love and light to all!!

Grace.

Wow...life is a ride on a rollercoaster. Just a few short months ago, I was begging and pleading with the universe to change my life. Be careful what you ask for, because you get it! Plus more! In the last couple of months, my life has changed dramatically. Just when I thought I had it figured out, it changed. What is "it" you ask? Life...and all that it encompasses.

I've come to realize a lot in the last couple of months and I'm sure I could go on and on about it writing and blogging until the wee hours of the morning. If I could sum it up in one word as to what I am feeling, it would have to be: Gratitude.

Every single experience in our life changes us...and we have the opportunity to heal an aspect of ourself that is holding us back from evolving to the multidimensional, multi-sensory human being that we are all striving for (consciously or not!). Around every corner is crisis. Or is it? It's a time to focus, a time to release, a time to heal. I'm so grateful for these experiences, for it has shaped me to become who I am today. These experiences have not only occurred in this lifetime, but for many lifetimes. Learning, and releasing, the cycle continues. I'm striving to release my ego and my thirst for external power. I only want to look at things with eyes of love, compassion and understanding. I now choose to place the welfare of mankind ahead of mine. Because I know that the way we choose to treat others, is the way we are choosing to treat ourselves. Hating, killing, oppressing, discriminating, and fearing. When will we all choose to wake up from this illusion? I hope I live to see the day that all of this changes. I'm so incredibly humbled and grateful for this realization. I hope I can rub off on others and inspire this behavior.

There but for the grace of God go I.

Losing the fear

According to Wikipedia, Fear is an emotional response to a threat. It is a basic survival mechanism occurring in response to a specific stimulus, such as pain or the threat of danger. Fear is useful to some extent, but most of the time, it reeks havoc on our lives. Millions of humans fear being alone, not being respected, not having enough resources and not being loved. When we fear, we lash out on people who are close to us, and people who are complete strangers. I wish people could step away from the fear and realize that we have another option-to believe that we in actuality, have nothing to fear. Fear is an illusion. It's an emotion generated from the ego. An emotion of some of the lowest energy.

Over the past few weeks, I've been confronted with Fear. Fear of a lot of things, but mostly fear of lack and fear of doubt. It's been a battle, and I believe I am finally prevailing. I think the only way we can heal the fear, is to choose something else. Choose to face the fear...right in the face. To anyone who reads these words, I ask you all to please have the courage and the strength to believe that you have nothing to fear. Everything is in perfect and Divine order. It just is, and there is no other way. Have the strength to look past the fear. Can you see what is there?

an army of words to try and explain myself and the last few days...

I’ve always believed in God. I’ve always believed in Angels. I’ve always believed in energy and the Universe. But the past few days, I have become more aware than I ever have of a loving, Divine presence. This presence is all encompassing-a label won’t even do it justice. It’s God, the Goddess, the Angels, my guides, the Ascended Masters, my ancestors and all those that I am not even aware of yet! It’s the whole Universe…The Divinity. It surrounds me yet resides within me all at the same time in a space right behind my heart. This presence is pure like an elixir of healing, supportive, unconditional light of the purest kind. It has always been and it will always be. It’s male and it’s female. It’s every name ever given. It stands outside of religion…it is pure spirit. I’ve stepped into a pool of light and grace. It’s overwhelming at times…almost dropping me to my knees in gratitude. It makes me want to sing, dance, and shout the glories of the Divine that I have stumbled upon. I overflow. My entire existence expands and I love. At times, this feeling is hard to contain. And that is why I am writing this…to try and describe what it is I feel.

Wellness Plan

Alison’s Wellness Plan Winter 2009/2010

Goal: To start a healthy routine to get me through the winter to come. To be the healthiest that I can be…physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Endevours included will be weight loss, creative outlets and advancing in my spiritual path.

To lead a prosperous life in all aspects.

Start date: Monday, September 28, 2009

Physical Commitments:
1-Exercise 4 times per week for a minimum of 1 hour
2-Stretching with deep breathing everyday
3-Drink 2 green jugs of water per day
4-Minimize dairy products, “white” foods/processed foods and incorporate at least 5-6 servings of fruit and veggies everyday
5-No soda or any beverage with carbonation
6-Substitute tea for coffee as often as possible
7-Lose 15-20 lbs

Mental Commitments:
1-Be in the process of reading a book at all times
2-Write something at least 4 days a week
3-Buy keyboard and write at least 2 original songs by birthday (music and lyrics)

Emotional Commitments:
1-Positive affirmations every morning
2-Passing on the positive to someone else, everyday

Spiritual Commitments:
1-Speak less, listen more.
2-Meditation everyday-Even if it’s for 5 minutes
3-Actively seek/host community and spiritual gatherings



Rewards:
1-Massage every month
2-Spend $50 every month on me or whatever I want

Mutant Message Down Under

I just finished the BEST book. Mutant Message Down Under. It's about a woman's journey through the Outback with a tribe of some of the most beautiful people on this planet. The concepts in the book are so eye opening...yet are very clear and plain as day. I highly recommend you read this book. It's a fairly quick read...and trust me...it will change your life. Here are the main things that really settled into my heart as I read.

1-The concept of releasing attachment to wordly possessions and beliefs. The minute we start to do this, is the minute that we move into actually "being."
2-We are all healers...and we are perfectly capable of healing ourselves and each other. I find it really unsettling to know about some of the harsh realities of the relationships between some doctors and their patients. The words.."I'm sorry, there is no cure...you are going to die" is heard WAY TO OFTEN in our world today. How do they know there isn't a cure to illness, cancer and disease?!? They just haven't bloody found it yet!! Also...the concepts of Reiki, accupuncture, light therapy and good ol fashioned positive thinking being just too "new" to rely upon in a bunch of absolute crap. These are some of the oldest healing modalities and techniques in the Universe! If we all just quit poisoning ourselves, and actually held a positive thought once or twice daily, we would no longer need a "health care" reform. Insurance would no longer be needed...and we would be healthy, happy, whole people.
3-Let's stop taking more than we need. And let's stop wasting precious resources. It's taking a tole on our planet.
4-The art of silence, mediation, and quieting our mind is the STRONGEST form of communication we have with the Gods. How can we listen and receive our answers when we are constantly talking? Next time you say a prayer, try silencing your mind for 5 minutes. You'd be surprised at the impressions you receive. This is actually Divine guidance.
5-Let's lift each other up and celebrate the gifts that each of us bring to the table. We are all tiny pieces of the puzzle...so why do we compete? We are one.
6-And last but not least...the importance of giving thanks. For every single thing. Let us all start and end our day with a prayer of gratitude. Here are the things for which I am completely grateful for today...

The words of encouragement i received from my Aunt Debbie this morning. The food that I was blessed in consuming. The nourishment and strength that I received from my food. The people that prepared my food. The animals that contributed to the dairy products I ate. The plants that contributed to the food that I ate. The roof over my head. The car that I drive. The very clothes on my back. A warm bed to rest in. The freedom of being who I am...without getting burned at the stake! The water that I drink and the ocean that it came from. Stones and crystals. My clients who lift me up and support me so that in return, I may give back and serve them. My health. My awareness. My enlightenment. The rain and the cleansing it brings. My family.